You ever get the feeling that there was this time, that u managed to screw what u had going on up really bad? Im not talking bout daily screw ups, but like this major screw up that u made happen coz at that time it seemed like the thing to be done. Like the thing should be done, so u went ahead and did it. Then looking back, u realise and REGRET cause it's the stupidest dumbest decision you have ever made? Ever had that happened? Well, im no ms perfect goody two shoes so I've done alot of stupid shit in my 18-19 years of existence, but the most screwed up regrettable decision is still the day I let u go. Until now, no other stupid stuff i did (mind you guys, i've done ALOT ALOT of fucking stupid ass things yeah) can top that decision. Yeah I know pretty dumb rite, this happened almost about 2years already, but still one cant help but look back and regret from time to time. Im no exception, though i wish i was cause then i wouldnt need to feel this unexplainable feeling that creeps into my heart ever so often. Sigh. Im human huh, what can you expect. Nobody has yet to give me what you could give. I guess the day I let you go was the day that your shoe size expanded like mad, cause no one till now can fill your shoes. My expectations are what was set by you, so yeah. FML. But I deserve it dont I? And I accept it. Goodnight.

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